Wednesday, March 21


Lately, actually not lately. It has been sometime now that I have notice, some humans are just plain instigators. What I do mean by that? Well, all they want to do is instigate something towards another person may it be through their actions or words.

I find these sort of people have just too much time on their hands and all they want to do is just find issues to bug people on. Like seriously? Have you not got anything else to do?

Is it really that fun?

There should be boundaries and those boundaries are at times not meant to be crossed. If you do cross it, beware, you have been warned, you will get pretty burned up.

These sort of instigators comes in many forms. Some can be physical while the most common ones are those that we call, "keyboard warriors" or should I say "smartphone warriors" instead? Hahaha.

Sometimes it is not that I hate these folks but at times, do know when to stop and when or what to ask or say things. Being naive is one, but being a noob is another.

But anyway, I take all these as entertainment to me as well. Makes like a little exciting is it not?

Wednesday, March 14

My belated birthday present

Not sure if I've mentioned it before but I was in the midst of getting my birthday pressie since late January. Now, my pressie is here and I cannot be any more happy about it!

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It is totally something personal to me and only me would ever know why. So my advise is, don't bother asking me about it. 

Wednesday, March 7

What a tiring day

So I'm now at KKIA waiting for my flight back to KL. It has been a super long day here in this city. Technically I've been up since 6:30am while I slept at 2:00am this morning as well. Don't ask me why.

Anyway it's my first time to Kota Kinabalu and I must say, it's a pretty place to visit. Here for work and not leisure as some might think. Though I don't mind coming back here for leisure. There's still so much to do and see! I'm planning my list of to dos for my next trip here.

Thursday, March 1

Oh March is here

February just went by so fast without even me or us realising it. Ain't it? How I wished my birthday month would last just a bit longer.

Anyway sometimes I don't really know what some people are trying to proof. They would harp over the same thing over and over just to get an answer. What are they looking for? Some sort of assurance or what? Or they just have no other thing to do and would love to create some drama? Drama is all they know in life I guess?

Sunday, February 18

CNY & Banana

Happy Chinese New Year folks! Hope your new year has been great. Every year the new year is pretty much the same for me. Dinner and laze around. Nothing great or exceptional ever happens. There are those who always look forward to the new year but for me it becomes a routine and I’m just too used to it. This year I didn’t even buy any new clothes cause I feel it’s just the same. I know it’s not exactly good for me to be having these sort of feeling but well I can’t help it.

So how am I going to overcome this issue? Well I’m thinking of doing something different next year. Something simple like taking the whole family out for dinner or travelling somewhere. I do wish I have the means to do so much more but I don’t. So I shall do what I can and able to for now. 

The new year aside, it has been bothering me a lot lately that I was raised as a banana. You must be wondering what do I mean by being a banana right? Well it basically means a person who is a Chinese but can’t read, write or speak in Chinese. Why banana as a reference? Because Chinese are always associated as being yellow. So the banana skin represents that yellow skin Chinese while the inside of the banana is white. So that refers to being a Chinese who only speaks English like a white person. I know it’s kinda weird but Malaysians do have creative minds. 

So how is this an issue? Since young I’ve always been given the stare or being told off that I’m sort of a disgrace to the Chinese community for being as such. The uncles and aunties at stores or hawkers centres would say things which can be hurtful at times but some how I’ve grown used to it and I don’t really get bothered by it anymore. But sometimes I do wished I could at speak at least basic mandarin. It would somehow make things so much easier. I know I can learn it from friends but to be honest the amount of Chinese friends I have, it’s like I can count with my fingers. So few and I don’t meet them 24/7 in order to learn it fast enough.

But 30 year’s later here I am still coping and trying to survive in this ratchet world of mine. 

Tuesday, February 13

Elton John

Firstly, gosh such a tiring week. 

Okay, not that tiring. Just overreacting a little. 

Just got back from Sibu on Monday and tomorrow I'll be flying off to Kota Bahru for a meeting. Somehow I do love this sort of work travel matters. It makes the day move faster and I get to be out of the office as well. There's good and bad to it. The bad is I got to be up bloody early just to catch my flight.

Looks like everyone is heading home for the new year and here I am stuck in town. Why? Cause I've got no hometown which is out of town to visit. Well, being local (Klang Valley) has its advantages such as no traffic and no worries of having to get stuck in massive crawls along the highways.

I'm not really looking forward to this year's reunion dinner. One of the main reason is I will be asked this; "Eh where's your girl friend? You want to be like Elton John ar?". Like seriously what sort of reference are you trying to make? Anyway, I've been getting that same question every time there's a family gathering. Sometimes I just wished I could answer "YES!" and have their peppy mouths shut.

I just realise its Valentines Day tomorrow. Who or how will I be spending my Valentines? Well perhaps with myself. Loving myself more. Why must Valentines be celebrated with others? I mean its just a man made day. If you ask me, when you're in a relationship, every day should be Valentines for as long as it lasts. Not just on a particular day.

Owh Dua Lipa is coming to KL. Anyone planning to catch her? If yes, can I join? 

Saturday, February 10

What has changed?

So how did I celebrate my birthday? Nothing much to be honest. Simple dinner, then visited Divine Bliss (yes the roof top bar or club) at G Tower (such a nice name for a building ain't it?). Had a couple of drinks. Not exactly couple but few glasses to be precise. Drank my current favourite vodka which is Grey Goose but somehow it didn't really hit me. This made someone pissed because he said "It is your birthday! You're supposed to get drunk!". Honey, vodka is in my blood. Hahahaha! It was a fun night, having my butch and bestie there. Not forgetting the others who joined as well.

Met some new acquaintances after the night ended. It was nice knowing them. A funny fact is, one of them called me an otter. Any idea what is an otter?

Anyway since then (my birthday), nothing much has changed. I'm still pretty much the same human being. Still not dating anyone. Is it cause I'm not keen? Not really. It is more of me being lazy that's why. I've gave up talking to some people who I thought could be potential dates. You know I totally hate it when you try to strike a conversation and the reply you get are "Hahaha / Lol / Ic / Hehehe / 2 words / 3 words". Honestly, if that's all you're going to reply, better not bother to do so. Maybe their fingers are made of gold and each time they type, a bit of them falls off which lowers their value. Meh.

I'm still working on my top 5 things to do within the next 2 years. This is something my bestie taught me which is to make short term goals that would lead to my own happiness and satisfaction. I was also told to go for a holiday, secretly without anyone knowing. Which means I am not allowed to tell a single soul except my family where I'm going, I must go alone and I cannot share anything on social media till I'm back from it. Sounds easy right? But honestly it is not! Where to go la?

Next, I'm saving up for my birthday gift which coming in March. Yes I bought my self a gift and I'm happy about it. Stop judging!