Tuesday, March 30


Last night I totally release all my stress, tiredness, sickness, madness and all sort. I've never broke down for so long. Only last night was the night that I did. I couldn't handle it anymore at that point. I had to let it all out. I feel so much better now. Although this morning my eyes were totally swollen, but I acted normal like always..LOL... Not forgetting thanks to Bell-Amin who I've knew since I shifted into UPM. Thanks for your shoulder and also your shirt..hahaha.. (dah kering ke belum?? hahaha).. Vocal practice 3- HUH!!! HUH!!!! HUH!!!!

Monday, March 29

My Words

You know some people or should I say my friends think I'm being unprofessional or too emotional about my status on Facebook. Well here's what I have to say. I've never spoken my mind off before. So if you're going to take what I've written seriously then it's fine with me. All I can say is, if you're hurt then I'm sorry but I had to speak my mind off. You know, they say they've been quite patient with me but listen, look who's more patient now. They say whenever I'm moody and angry they just kept quiet all the time. What about when you guys are moody or upset ? Have I ever spoken anything to you or said anything that might make you mad ? These is the first time I've written such a thing in my Facebook. I've never done it before. But why did I wrote it? It's because there hasn't been anything going into you guys. You know, they say 'he should have just sat down and discuss instead of putting out such status'. Well to me what I write, it doesn't mean you got to take it with you. If you want to take it personally then there's nothing I can do. What I write is just for me. It's a place where I express my feelings. Now I know you guys will think 'what kind of guy is he ?'. Well you know, I've given up my hope. If I'm to loose my friends because of that then it's fine with me. I can't force you guys to be friends with me if deep down inside you guys hate me. If I'm to be alone, that may it be. If I'm to be alienated then I'll accept it. If I'm to be hated by others then let it be. I'm just another human being. Well who am I to judge a book by its cover right ?. Sometimes I wonder all the things I've done for them, is it really worth it ? I've spend my cash just make a happy situation. I've spend my feelings to conform others. I've spend my energy just to make them smile. The things that I've spend, have I ever ask them back ? Have I ever demanded it back from you guys ? Have I ever force you guys to give it back ? Some might say yes, but is it true ? Some of you might say I've change but take a mirror and look yourself in it. One thing is for sure. Everybody changes. I change, you change. I've driven you guys around and you know what, it cost my hundreds because the damage suffered I had to bear. I've splash on you guys and you know what I had to tie my stomach to survive. I've comfort you guys in sadness but I've suffered on my own in tears. My heart has been in chaos, has anyone ask about it ?. Now as I write I'm in tears. Tears that I shall collect and throw away for memories to last a lifetime. Things I've done to be kept as memories. I've known many people in my life for as long I have lived more then you guys might have ever known. Some of you might say my ego is too big but it's not about my ego. If it was I would have written nasty things that will hurt you the most. Everyone is a human being Gods creation. He gave us emotions for us too live. Everyone has it. Everyone has their ups and downs. So this is my down. Some of you might have been hurt but I can't care anymore cause I've been hurt to many times too. I've never said anything. Maybe sometimes is like what my mum used to say," you can have a million friends but if none of them understands you, is better having one which truly understands you". I've always hold on to my mum's words. Because she is my only friend who understands me. All my troubles I've shared with her. All my pain she has known them. I love my mum. My tears are falling again. I've always known things you have can't last forever unless you take care of it. But I've taken care of it so much until I've forgotten myself. I've forgotten to care for myself and how to make myself happy anymore. Things I've done well might have been forgotten. But things you've done I have not forgotten them. My emotions are running dry. I can't bear to think or care anymore. Maybe I need to distance myself awhile from everyone. To clear my mind and think straight back on track. If you hardly see me, it means I'm healing myself back. I got to heal back from everything I've suffered. I have been burn so deep that a scare has been left on my heart. I need space and time for myself. I've given to much of myself to others. I love my loved ones and care for my close ones. Cherish what you have. Don't be a burden to others. If I'm a burden or a pain let me know. If I've done something wrong tell it to me. Now I couldn't care anymore. Friends I'm changing. Maybe you might loose me someday. Maybe I won't always be here someday. Well for once I've had great memories with you. My words are for my own, and my own to stay.

Wednesday, March 24

Issues from others

Everyone has issues. Even I have issues that can't be solve and haunt me now and then. But some of those who have issues can't seem to keep to them selves or solved it yourself. Their issues will sometimes have to be a burden to the others. A slight glitch can become a huge issue and might even lead to unreasonable fights or dissatisfaction. If you have issues don't throw them on others. Keep it to yourself and you might actually make things much more comfortable for others too.

18 + Only

So I was on Youtube getting some ideas for my assignment which is Advertising totally unfinished, then there was this clip that caught my attention. Its totally cute and funny but meaningful. Really had me going with the storyline and all. Here's it to share with you guys.

Saturday, March 20

Please Stop Calling Me!!

Finally manage to catch Lady Gaga fest. Beyonce's latest video for her song Telephone. Totally Lovin It. Real funny but cool. Its one the good ones from Gaga. 9 minutes plus is kinda long for a music vid but the have been much longer ones like MJ. Honestly Beyonce's kinda funny in that vid but totally awesome as always. Well here's the video. Enjoy it. Always Gaga-ing..

Tuesday, March 16

Hello is this Adrian??

"Hello is this Adrian?"

"Yes I am"

"Hi I'm Sally from Maxis. I would like to inform you that we have decided to take you in as an
intern at Maxis Public Relations Department. o are you still interested?"

"Yes I am. Is there anything you need?"

"Yes. We will need your official internship letter as well as other documents which I will need you
to fill. I will email them to you. So you can start your internship in May right?"

"Yes but I'll have to confirm back with you again. Do you want me to hand in the letter
personally to you?"

"Yes because we need the original copy."

"Alright then I'll sent it to you next week."

"Ok hope to see you soon.Bye."


A conversation between me and Maxis PR executive yesterday morning. When I saw the number I had 2 things on my mind. It was either I got it or I did not. But, when she said they wanted me I so darn Happy!!! I did not expect I'll get the internship from Maxis. The interview was just so so and I wasn't counting on it at all, but I got it. I'm totally happy about it. Hurray!!! I was so worried I would not get a place cause all my other friends have gotten theirs. In the end I got mine too. The place that I wanted finally I got it. Huhuhu. Can't wait to start my internship. Kinda scared but excited as well. Maxis Communications Public Relations Department here I COME!!!!....


Thursday, March 11

Blank ..........

Last Tuesday had my first internship interview with Maxis Communication's PR Department. Well what can I say bout the interview is, I might have made an impression or may not. I can't say it was a great interview though but it wasn't a bad one too. At the start it was going quite well but then when it came to the TEST part, I might have not done that well. I had to write an essay bout myself in 5 years time. My future plan for my life. It was like a hit on my head with a golf ball. I was total out of ideas and almost blank. So being myself, I had to be creative. A short story was written on the 3 piece of paper given. Well now I'm waiting for the response from Maxis's side within a weeks time. I hope I'll get the job@internship. Crossing fingers hoping for the best.

Thursday, March 4

1 Month

Post for today:

Its been one month since my 22nd birthday past and since I met 'Tut". I did not realize 4 weeks went by and more weeks to come. One month being 22. One month knowing you.

Wednesday, March 3

The Rush and The Hush

Its funny when people hardly seen you around like they normally do, they'll always say this, "Its been so long since I've seen you. When and what have you been doing?". Well the answer for it is "I've got somethings to do".
The last few weeks or maybe almost a month or so, I've been more into my own world in my own space. Now I'm practicing the concept of 'I'm there when I'm needed, and I'm gone when I'm unneeded'. It really helps me in giving myself sometime for my life since I've started a new path. Being in my own world can be so much fun (LOL). But well with a new tagline to my badge, I'll have more space and time.

I'll be there when there's a RUSH but I'm gone when there's a HUSH

Monday, March 1

Long Hiatus

Yes I'm back to blogging again. It has been such a February month for me. Tones of stuff had happened and I'm still going strong. My birthday was a blast and the after effect was a total blast too. Then came some stories along the way some lovely stories. Chinese New Year this time was truly tiring going from one place to another for four days straight. After CNY had lots very very very busy days and week until some people have said its been so long since I've seen your face although we live in the same place. (Well sometimes I prefer the comfort of my room people). Now its already March 2010. I'm still waiting for my replies from companies that I've send my resume for my practical. Hope to get some reply soon. Worries bout it like mad cows. One more thing, I officially announce that I've gain lots of weight since the start of February. I think I've gain quite a lot. My face is chubby now and I don't really like it. I want my slim face back. (LOL). So this is my first entry for March and I'm typing this entry as if I'm typing in Twitter. Weird (LOL). More updates to come I hope so. My Nuffnang's not moving. People click on the adverts ok. Thanks. Love you guys. Oh yeah I won't be doing the "p.s." thingy anymore. Too many are doing it so I'll leave it out.