Thursday, February 21

Cucumber

It's been a super long day. I'm out of the office but still at the mall awaiting for time to pass. No gym today since I'm doing it alternate days. Work has been quite pack this week. Review's coming up soon and end of the quarter testing will need to be runned. But so far so good. Almost over being an emotional wreck. Must be open to the world although I'm very open already in my life. Wink wink. Was having a minor discussion with a friend about work and I just casually ask her, lets work in Singapore. She instantly answered sure not problem for me. She sure seems all out.
Well I did have the thought of going there to work after I came back before new year the other week. But leaving behind all you have here and starting somewhere totally new is really tough. Trying to start at a new job is already so tough imagine starting life! Maybe I will try to find but only when I'm ready to really start fresh. Till then just dreaming of what job should I find.
I better finish my cucumber juice and head out from here. Hugs!


Tuesday, February 19

Rip it all

Who am I fooling? I don't know. Myself maybe. But no worries. I'm doing good. Gosh what's with all this emotional flings?

Entry doesn't quite go with the title.

Monday, February 18

I wish....

I used to hope for certain things in life. I used to hope that everything would be fine. I used to hope that everything is such a great thing. I used to hope that Malaysia would know. I used to hope that I could buy everything that I want.

But...

Now I rather wish for something then to hope. Hoping brings sadness when what you hope for doesn't come as expected. When failure hits you, its like a bullet to the brain. Hoping is good but hoping can also be no good.

I do still hope but I prefer to wish now. At least I just wish for something. Even if I do get it or not, at least it won't be as daunting as hoping. So I wish for a night full of stars. I wish for the moon to reflect the sun's light as strong as it can. I wish to have the time to do all I can. I wish this feeling would never end. I wish for the day to come that would make rainbows glow in the sky. I wish for someday the sun shines with a widest smile.

So I want to be like Pinocchio. Wishing upon a star every night for a miracle.

Thursday, February 14

Happy Valentines Day

Happy Valentines Day people! How are you having it? Valentines isn't just for those with their partners. Even singles can enjoy the day. Its about spreading the love to others. Even friends and family. Everyday can be a Valentines day and not just today. Why should you wait for today to make it special? Make everyday a special day with your love ones.

Ok. That sounds to advertorial.

Anyway, how I'll be having my Valentines you may ask? Well just dinner with friends! Hye come on, these day everybody does it. What's not to love right? For a more honest answer, I've got no reason to celebrate it more in depth than what it should really be. No reason yet. Besides if there was a reason, everyday will be Valentines to me. (Got goosebumps yet?).

Thinking of getting a hair cut. Is it ok to have it? Some say to wait till after CNY to chop it all off. But I seriously need a haircut! Like seriously.

Another story, finally contacted a super close friend from uni days. We were like bread and butter but suddenly we stopped contacting each other due to certain reasons I guess but now we're in touch again. Lots to catch-up and buzzing about. Birds of a feather flock together right?

In another chapter of the book, gosh honestly I really feel dry and wasted. Do you know what it means? Well dry means moody and wasted like being a rag. Well that's how I interpret it. Am I sad? Well kinda. Am I angry? Not really. Am I dishearten? Well a little I guess. How am I overall? Neutral. Where's my ying and yang? Fengshui master please!

I notice my blog is becoming more of a private journal. I think this is the best place to speak my mind. So from now on, I'll pour all my juice here. IF I have the time.

A BIG shout out to all love birds out there and not forgetting lone birds, have an awesome Valentines Day!!

Wednesday, February 13

So close yet so far

Hye folks! Happy Chinese New Year folks! How are ya doing folks? Ok that's enough of folks.

Dear bloggie, I've missed you so much. Hugs and kisses to him, my blog is a him apparently, and not her, for I'm not sure why. How's the new year celebration been going on? Have any been snaking around? Shouldn't you know.

So just some little update on have been going on lately till I'm so called too busy to blog, actually its more of being lazy.

Firstly, celebrated my birthday twice with the same awesome people. The first was a foursome, and the 2nd it was a fivesome (is there such a word? whatever). The 2nd was more official even though it was done 2 days earlier since my birthday falls on a Monday (which according to feng shui master it's the date of when the snake year actually is and not the 10th). A simple Japanese food just the 5 of us. Had a lovey time. Thanks guys! Also thanks for the presents I've gotten from T-shirt to chocolates. I've yet to use or eat any of it. Did I mention I got myself a birthday give? I love myself truly.

Then there was the time before new year. A day after my birthday, the family was struck with a shocking news. My uncle who've been battling with cancer lost the war. May he RIP. Managed to visit the family on Tuesday night before I flew off.

Wednesday-Friday, had to fly to Singapore for a meeting and training. It was quite a rush trip and packed. Couldn't really make the time to explore more in terms of hanging out downtown. Flew in, check in, meeting, training, check out, flew back. But at least the hotel was lovely, Crowne Plaza but should've gone for city hotel at least at night I won't be so bored. Could've gone walking about. Anyway planning to go back but for a short weekend holiday. Sometime in May. Anyone interested?

Chinese New Year was the same this year and every other year for me. Nothing much. Didn't do any visiting actually this year or even last year. I'm not sure why but I love CNY ii could be just maybe when things change too much, you kind of get "owh okay" with it. Any open house?

What else, oh yeah I think I need to do some side job. Gosh everything is so freaking expensive! Any job offer? "Extra service sir".

Other then that, well, nothing much. There's been a certain situation going on but well hye I'm just going with the flow. Actually it's kind of better to just go with the waves at least you know what to expect when it hit the rocks. If you know what I mean. Hugs!

Currently making arrangements for the beach trip in April. I'm opting for a 4 days instead of a 3. Rather be out of the city longer. Aiming for another maybe in September.

I'm trying to gain more weight to look better but it's really not easy for me since I can't eat certain stuff. Any idea?

After having such a long weekend and being away from the office for a week, it really feels not that nice to be where I am now. Honestly got no mood to work at all. Thinking of leaving early. If I can.



That's all for now. Going to do some blog walking. See ya!