Been feeling under the rain lately. For no apparent reason actually. It's like it comes and goes like that. Sometimes I'll be just happy and no problems or anything, but sometimes it can be out of a sudden I'll have mood swings from A - Z. I can't exactly say why I'm like this and what's causing it because I don't know the answer to it. Maybe I do but I assume it's not the answer.
Honestly I hate being this way. It's like affecting my work and the people around me actually. I send out bad vibes and they start feeling the badness from those vibes. I think I'm going nuts.
Today a friend of my dad did like a fortune telling for me. He used my birth date details and came up with a few numbers. To my surprise what he told was actually true about me. He spoke about work, life, love and much more. After hearing it I did have some thoughts about it and kept wondering what are the changes I've got to make. The risk I've got to take. Another thing, he said my perfect match should be someone who have the number 3. See the picture below? Circled, I'm a number 5. I can't remember the reason why but it's suppose to be good.
Work is going to get more stressful and tiring day by day. Attending meetings and discussions is really challenging. Some may say my job is fun, yes it is when I have awesome colleagues, but when you've got to stay back like till 8-9pm to settle stuff, it isn't all that nice. Still it's something I'm trying to adapt too.
I'm praying and really hoping the coming seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and even years to be kind to me and for me to face them whole heartedly.
"I long for a response when I speak not just a reply of a word or two. It breaks to know how far you'll go when I only linger for a word of care and interest"