Thursday, March 26

More than that

I guess this is some sort of still my own private space I still have but I do know people will still read it. With all the other platforms I have, there isn't any privacy at all. I mean I don't or can't even voice out what I wish or want without causing any issue or anything that per say.

It has been a hectic and tiring month. March hasn't been the greatest of all the months and I'm sure the following months to come it will be the same as well.

Work is getting even more stress day after day. Had a meeting on Wednesday morning and it wasn't the greatest at all. I guess the pressure is all now on me to deliver and I do wish I could but at the same time I'm doubting myself if I could even do so. Friends used to always say to me, "Gosh your job is so fun!". Yea it is fun and a total new adventure for me but there are times it's not all fun as you see on the surface. It is deeper than that and it much more complicated.

Friday, March 13

A Friend

'Sorry for not wishing you earlier' 

'Happy birthday!'

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'Hey happy Chinese New Year'

'What's up for CNY?'
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Those were the most recent texts I've received from you. After that I've never gotten any. I never did ask nor did I care. You're always the one to ask me out, to eat, to watch, to dance, to talk, to share. 

Wednesday, March 11

#Pray

Its been superbly busy for me this past few weeks. I'm just starting to feel extremely tired and to top it off I'm getting sick or should I say I am sick.

With so much of stuff going on, I received a shocking news last Friday that my closes friend was admitted into an ICU due to lung infection.

Visited him on Sunday and I just couldn't hold back my tears when I saw him. I spoke with all my might and not to cry in front of him.

When I back away to let him rest, I would just cry non-stop thinking why have I not known of his health and status? Why did I reject his invites to go out and meet up?

When I was about to return back to KL on Sunday evening, I hold his hand tightly and when I was about to let go, he grabbed hold of my hand not wanting to let go. Again I just teared and waited for him to rest. After he did, I slowly moved and spoke to the family.

Received an update on Tuesday evening that he was in a critical condition and was unconscious at times. The doctors told the family to just be prepared for any circumstances that might occur.

My heart sank when I heard that news and I just don't want to know the possibilities.

I pray so hard that he'll be okay and we'll be meeting each other back in KL going out for drinks.