Sunday, November 19

Being irrelevant

See la. Sometimes I’m so hardworking to blog but sometimes I’m just like fuck it I’m not going to write anything.

So we just passed mid November and soon December is coming plus Christmas then the new year. There is still so much to do but so little time in our hands till we just struggle to do everything and anything we can within a small period of time.

Tuesday, October 31

Happy Halloween!

It is Halloween! Happy Halloween folks! I think pretty much everyone celebrated their Halloween over the weekend and I did too. In Singapore that is.

Sunday, October 15

2 & half months till 2018

Can you believe it? We are just 2 and half months shy before we ring in the year 2018. I feel like I barely did anything this year. Apart from facing and experiencing new things and issues. So much have happen and I'm not sure what's going to happen next. Just taking a step at a time and trying too absorb everything in.

Tuesday, September 26

A series of unfortunate events

Image result for unfortunate events gifFirstly I would like to say, Unifi is so bloody sucky! The connection is just so unstable from time to time and I'm not sure why can't there any other provider who can overtake them in the industry?

Wednesday, September 20


New job is great so far but pretty hectic these days. Been attending lots of seminar, talks, functions and etc. It is good to network but can be physically tiring as well. It's not easy honestly. Not at all. Some folks might think its fun but its not.

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Tuesday, September 12

10 things

Not sure if I've ever written this but I'm guessing not, or maybe I have? Not so sure. Hahaha.

Thursday, September 7


Hello dear blog,

How are you doing? Technically not my blog but you folks reading, if any of you are reading.

It has been so long since I've returned to this place.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to perhaps a new me from now on to be a better person, reduce negativity and meet more people along my way.

Taking a step at a time and doing what I love and best at. Not easy but I'm sure I will surely arrive there.

Anything new so far? Well I've signed my housing loan. Yes, a huge ass commitment. Gosh anyway for future.

Me and my partner have officially parted ways. It was me who requested for it. It is for the best.

Here's to a new life!

Tuesday, August 1

Been thinking

I have been thinking lately. Usually I do not really like to think that much but lately I've been doing so. Thinking makes you very tired, mentally, till you just want to drop everything and rest.

What have I been thinking about? Well lots of stuff. From A till Z. Sometimes I wonder why I think so much also. Haha. I guess I just like to think.

Sunday, July 23

What a month

July has and still is certainly a busy month for me. Started my new job and it has pretty much been keeping me quite busy. Although I do finish much earlier than usual but it still does take up my time especially travelling to and from work. On average it takes me 30 minutes to reach work but retuning takes me almost 2 hours (only once but rarely) to return home. This is because of the traffic which is such a pain!

That aside, this new place is still great as I'm learning lots of new stuff on a daily basis which is awesome and seeing how decisions made affect a whole lot of people and not forgetting you have the whole nation watching you. 

On recent updates, my dog (technically my sister's dog) died on the 10th of July. He has been part of the family for 13 years and to see him go is such a heart wrenching moment. I wasn't there to see him off but mom did. I guess old age got the best of him. We had him cremated through the service of the family vet in a private ceremony. It cost us RM450 to do so but they did it so well complete with a mini ceremony and they delivered his ashes back to our house. Mom plans to make a little memorial at home for him and my previous dog which died as well last few years. Mom said no more keeping dogs as each time this happens it is so painful to experience it which I totally agree. We've been having dogs for almost 35 years and many have come and go every time. Hope they are all happy up there. Reminds me of the cartoon I watched last time about dogs called All Dogs Go To Heaven. 

As for me, started back gumming since last week after a week of no gymming due to my tattoo. Been trying to work harder in gym to cut away the fats and build back. Seriously it's not easy. Hoping to be at least in better shape by year end la at least. 

Also I'm starting something new in terms of career. Going to do some part time thingy which I know people may hate me for it but no harm trying and learning stuff. If you don't try you don't know right?  Will share more once my training is over.

Oh did I mention I'm already planning to get my second tattoo? Yea I am. Hahahaha. But a small one la and somewhere where it won't affect my gym routine. Hahaha. Dragging either my sister or a friend of mine to get it together cause it's cheaper. Hahaha. For a small one la.

That's all for as a quick update. More to come later'

Monday, July 3

The day I lost my virginity

It was the day I lost my virginity. After almost 3 years, I finally gave it up for what I have been wanting for.

The moment it touched my skin, I could feel the pain yet satisfaction.

It lasted for 45 minutes. The feeling of it prinkling and moving around.

I have certainly lost my virginity.

Sunday, June 25

Sunday, June 18

2 weeks more to go

I'm writing this in my office. Yes its a Sunday and I'm in office. Why? Well I just have lots more to settle before I wave this place goodbye. Besides I prefer working in the office rather then home or a cafe somewhere. Reasons are because I have a season pass for parking which means my parking is covered, I have a comfortable place to work with food and snacks, awesome wifi which allows me to watch my favourite movies and I don't have to spend 15 bucks on a cup of coffee cause my office has a bean-grounding-coffee-machine.

2 weeks more before I leave this place for good (for now). Having lots of mixed emotions but I know its for a greater good anyways. Apparently another colleague of mine just resigned as well. I'm not sure if the management is not aware but clearly something is wrong somewhere in here and nothing seems to be done to fix it. Guess everyone is always replaceable and talents can be found anywhere? Who knows.

Wednesday, June 7

Being an adult

You know they always say, you're not an adult until you've been bounded by huge commitments? Have you heard of that before? Yes no? I'm guessing some would say yes and some would say no.

I guess now I've officially been labeled as an adult. Why am I saying that? Well it's because I've signed the papers for my first property. Yes,soon I'll be having my own space and living within my own liking. Technically in another 3 years time la.

Remember in one of my previous post I wrote about life goals? Having achieve the 1st goal and this year I'm about to clinch my 2nd life goal? So yes, this is my 2nd life goal and I've met it which I'm going to hold dearly in my hands.

So I am officially an adult now. Sometimes it sucks but isn't that the cycle of life?

Sunday, June 4

Read me

With only a torch light in my hand, I opened the door of a wooden house and stepped in. As I move further into the house passing the main door towards the staircase in the living area, I could hear sounds of water droplets hitting the floor like rain. I quickly gave light to the place where the sound were coming from and with horror I could see streaks of blood dripping against the walls from the ceiling to the floor. Blood was also dripping down from each step of the staircase which heads up to the second floor of the house. The blood were made of colours from red to black and not something you would to see.

Being terrified, afraid and scared,  I still brave myself and headed up to the second floor of the quiet house. As I made my way up, I stepping on puddles of blood on each step of the staircase causing it to splash against the walls and messing up my shoes.

On the second floor, there was a room. I opened the door and stepped in. The next thing I knew I was looking down at a girl who was trying to text someone on her phone for help. While she was doing it, there were large flesh eating bugs crawling around the room which was covered in blood. As she tried to text the bugs begun surrounding her and biting while she hold back her screams but tears of pain flowed down from her eyes.

Within a blink of an eye, I was looking at the girl from the floor with bugs crawling all over and suddenly her phone drops into the pool of blood around the room vanishing out of sight. The girl screams with all her might that all of hope is gone for her and she will be doomed to be where she is ever.

Suddenly I could here a ringing sound and felt vibrations coming from around me. Next thing I realise it was 8am and time for me to wake up.

This is one of the weirdest dream ever had for the longest time. I used to have weird dreams last time ranging from road accidents to plane crashes and even family related events but nothing quite so horrific as this.

Wednesday, May 24


Have you heard or read the news? Taiwan is set to become the first country in Asia to legalise same-sex marriage! What an achievement for all the activist in Taiwan and a great news for the community in the region. I'm looking forward to the after effect of the new rule not just for Taiwan but the region. Will you be moving to Taiwan anytime soon?
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Well I don't hope for Malaysia to follow or let alone even recognise this rule nor the community. We'll just be 'like that lor'. Happy news aside, its heart wrenching to hear the news of the bombing in Manchester city. Why are humans just so cruel to each other?

Now for some updates.....

In my previous post I wrote about me and my love hate relationship with my job right? I'm not sure if it is a good or bad thing, but my relationship with my job has just reached a new peak. I'm officially serving my notice period till the end of June. I know some may say "Wahhh change job again ar? Wahhh job hopping ar? Wahhh! Wah this wah that". All the 'wahhs' will come out of their brains but honestly I don't simply make decisions based on what I feel but instead I make them base on what I can see and achieve. I don't make decisions like some dudes who only use their dicks as their brains. There is always a reason to everything and whatever it may be, I know it will be good for me. Of course I can't tell the future but at least I know where I'm heading too. I'm very excited for my new role and the people I'll be meeting. More to come!

So the day I tendered was quite a private affair with only two of my colleagues knowing it first before the email was sent. Yes I tendered via email. Some may think its a bit 'not nice' but hey, what era are we living in? Anyway, as usual, my manager had a talk with me and asked what can be done to change my mind about my decision. Honestly speaking, nothing can as I've set my mind to it and I'm a very goal oriented person. So nothing can change that. Then I met with my director. He too tried to talk me out of it, but as like before, I've made up my mind. You know, I don't hate the company nor the people. I just want growth that's all. 

Up next.....

I've been feeling so lethargic lately. I'm not exactly sure what's the reason but every day I feel so tired when I'm awake in the morning. What could it be? Am I SICK? or going to get SICK?

Aside from that.....

As years move on, I've been losing friends like how my hair falls on a daily basis. Many turned from friends to acquaintance and eventually, 'who are you again?'. Life.

Sunday, April 30

Another long weekend

Don't you just love this country? There are always public holidays which makes it so great! Haha.

This week is more of like a "spending time in town" kinda thing. Last week I was in Penang for a short vacay-cay. Didn't do much actually. Just walked round, looked for stuff to eat, dragged our feets here and there, eat again. All we did was really just eat and eat most of the time. My stomach was literally bout to explode from all those food we stuffed our face with.

Visited few places, the usuals in Penang. Didn't really plan on where to go cause we just wanted to make the trip more of like a random thingy.

Didn't really take much pictures either. Brought a camera together with me but nah, just used to snap a little stuff and nothing much. Hahaha.

On another note, I'm currently at Starbucks, Tropicana Mall typing this out and there's this one guy beside me who I find so freaking irritating like for real.

I'm guessing he is doing his work here cause I over heard him having some call about his project and stuff, but the thing that is getting on my nerves is how he eats his nuts. Yes eating nuts which is driving me nuts! Hahaha. He chews kinda loud, he just keeps shoving them down like he has not eaten nuts for the longest time ever! I know it may sound like something small to you or what's the issue of someone eating nuts but I'm not sure why it just gets to me. Maybe cause I don't eat nuts like he does? Hahaha.

These days I tend to get irritated by the smallest thing. Is this a sign of some mid life crisis? Gosh no. I can't be facing it! I shall not accept that fact!

Last Thursday my company had their monthly town hall and they decided to give out some token of appreciation to staff who've been in the company for 2 years (since we started). I've been here for the pass 1 year and 10 months. While I was at the event, I realised there were many things I love and still do about this place and I'm not sure how am I going to part with it if I had to. I mean, I've literally seen this company grow from the start till today and so much has change. So I'm just thinking, if the day does come for me to move on, how would I react and feel? How would the people around me feel and react? Would I be missed? Would I  be appreciated? I don't know. I'm not saying I'm gonna leave anytime soon but it is just something which I've been thinking. After years of working for a few different company, I've never been so attached to a company like this. I just feel connected some way, some how. Maybe cause I've been with it since the beginning and you tend to have a special bond with the people? Sorry this may sound a bit of a drama-to-be show but yea.

There are times I totally hate the place but most of the time which is around 80% I just love it. I don't mind putting in more time for it and ensuring I give my best. I've had people telling me how awesome it is to be me, to be able to see a company grow thus far and be part of it. Somehow it does make me feel proud in certain ways.

But yea, we all have to move on one day sooner or later. Unless its written in the stars? LOL.

Here's a favourite song from my favourite singer.


Friday, April 21


I'm really trying hard to keep this place alive honestly. I'm also getting the momentum back to keep updating. I remember when I first started blogging (which was like 9 years ago) I would update every single day! Too free I guess back then. Hahaha.

Its Friday how happy I am that it's Friday.

Will be heading to Penang this weekend for a well deserve break. Don't think I've traveled anywhere since my last trip to Langkawi last year.

I'm cutting down on all overseas trip for the year, cause as much as I want, I need to save more. Been spending quite a lot lately.

I'm also trying to start something new, new adventure, new venture, new phase in my work life. Hope it goes well and I can make something out of it.

I was supposed to write something else here but I've forgotten what was it. Sometimes I really have short term memory. Worst than Dory I think.

Sunday, April 16

1,100 strangers showing up for sex

Does the title of this post sound familiar? Perhaps some of you may have read it before but for those who've not, check it out here.

It talks about 1,100 strangers showing up at a guy's house for sex and the victim blames it on Grindr. The interesting part was it says the guy's ex was the one who is responsible for creating those fakes profiles on the app to lure men to his ex's house for sex. Is it true or not, well we're not sure but I feel there is a possibility for it.

Saturday, April 15

So sticky!

Honestly the title has nothing to do with this post. Hahaha! Just randomly wrote it to get your attention. Have I?

It's Saturday! Actually the only reason I'm kinda happy its the weekend is that I don't have to be awake in the morning, but other than that, nothing else really matter as I still work during the weekends may it be from home or office. Yup I do. Well, sometimes I do blame myself for it. It is like "who ask you to work in this industry?, Padan muka!" you know what I mean? Hey, working in an e-commerce is a trend but if you're not ready to face the working life of it, better don't even think of joining.

Wednesday, April 5

What's next?

Gosh it's April!

Achieved another mile stone. Hosted an event with a total estimated pax of slightly above 300 humans. It was certainly an exciting night and I did receive compliments from the team and even the Dato. So good to hear all those positive feedback although I know there's still room for improvement.

Tuesday, March 28


Firstly, I would like to take this moment to tell "gula tikus" I miss you!! Yes I've not spoken nor seen you for the longest time and have neglected our friendship but deep down I still love you for who you are! We need our McDonald session! So much to catch like how when someone loves ketchup too much at McDonald's they just pour it all out? Okay that sounds a bit wrong but hell, we are who we are right? I know you will read this so I'm putting you at the top of my list!

Wednesday, March 1

How it happened

There are few things that have happened in the last few weeks. Just need to find some time to sit down and just write it all out here.

I need a vacay-cay!

This song is soooooo catchy and totally relatable. This song should hit #1 on the  Billboard charts. Its underrated. 

Saturday, February 4

One wish is all I need
Early birthday celebration by lovelies.

What is it? Well it's my birthday! Yes I've grown another year older!

Can't believe how old I am now. Gosh!

Anyway this birthday, I don't need many wish but just one.

That's my only wish.

Sunday, January 29

New Year to New Year

From English new year to the Chinese new year. Another year has passed.

Firstly, I would like to wish a very Happy Chinese New Year folks! As the saying goes, it is the year of the cock. Wonder will there be any cocky people who would talk cock-sense using their cock rather than their brains?