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Sudden plan....

Okays since its the holiday season and the new semester starts in Jan, I made a sudden plan for a holiday to 'Penang' (I always love traveling to Penang, not sure why..haha). The sudden plan cropped up yesterday morning while I was on my way back from LCCT. I was thinking everyone was on holiday, and maybe I should too (sounds like desperate right...lolz). But as usual, sudden plans doesn't always work out right. So looks like I'm stuck in KL for NY. I wanna go Penang!!!... (hua hua hua)


You've gone already 1 day on a 6 days for holiday trip. Missing you damn much now. You've gone far. I will pray for your safety (hope you would be good). Missing you this new year. Lonely this year. But I hope you enjoy yourself.
Diary entry.


It looks like there's 4 days before New Year. So have I achieve anything so far in 2010? Well maybe (got a few I think..haha). I'm hoping the 2011 will be a better year for me, although so far 2010 have been quite good.  This year New Year's eve will be a little quiet for me. Just some dinner and wishes. Hoping to celebrate is with a special one, but there's not going to happen due to some overseas traveling (well what can I do right??). Instead I'll be celebrating with some friends in a minor moment. New Year is coming soooonnn...!!


On the first day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree.

On the second day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the third day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the fourth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the fifth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the sixth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the seventh day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in…

Livin' a new life...

I've managed to forget (mostly everything...) the past and move on in my life. There's no use remembering all the not so sweet past. Focus on what's to come is more precious then thinking what has been done. I'm feeling much happy now and I'm me once more (although I'm still kinda pulled back at times...). No more downs for me but only ups for me. So happy to be me again and living the the beautiful life. 

Love yourself, be yourself.

Missing uuu....

Damn its been like centuries since my last post. I miss you dearie (so Its like I've not blogged for like a year (how awesome is that? hahaha).
Too many things have been going on and been so bloody busy with so many things that's so important which is making me so tired plus so stressed up also been doing lots of running up and down really so tiring.
So this will be just a short post for today. Will update more (I'm sure of it...huhuhu)

p.s. - to someone who's I think you are reading my blog, sorry have not been answering your missed calls and messages...hohoho...

I need a miracle....

These past few days has been such a roller coaster for me. Seriously I've never had such 'thing' happened to me before. I hardly ate, rest nor talked. Was thinking too much and finding what to do. My head was spinning in circles like 1000 rounds per second. Now all I can do is just wait and go with the flow. Cherish what I have and love what I have. Hope all will be fine and back to last time.

(p.s. - couldn't get the video) will blow up...

Grenade by Bruno Mars
The lyrics can't be any more true. It is what's happening now. Understand the lyrics and you'll understand what's happening.

Chirstmas is in the air!...

Lip Lap Lip Lap (eyes blinking not something else ya), its almost the end of November (I mean like a week more) and here comes December. Holidays for everyone (only for schools, colleges and universities). Hurray! When its December there's New Year and Christmas! Can't wait for a new year. But before that it'll be Christmas. But sadly this year won't be able to quite celebrate it. Well I got myself into it (something which I like but currently my hearts not into it at all), I'll have to suck it up. But at least I have the New Year, but there's a problem too. Lots of them (my lovely friends) won't be around to celebrate it. Looks like this year end would be a quite one for me. Was hoping for a great to this year but all seems not to go that way. Well what can I say? Nothing.
So to put some jingles in the air here's my favourite singer with a new Christmas single. Enjoy bloggies.

Be happy....AD

I've been quite down these past few days (or should I say weeks) due to uncertain reason (which I can't reveal here..hehe). I've been doing too much thinking, too much worrying. Because of all this, its seriously affecting my health (as I'm still bloody sick now), but luckily I'm getting much better (big smile...). Sometimes I think why should I even bother right? I mean enjoy life and face whatever it comes with an open heart and be positive (that's so true!). So from now on, I shall be happy with any situation and whatever comes my way. May it be bad or good, I'll always be happy and go lucky (like the old me :p). 

Flu bug....

Damn I'm hit by the flu bug again! (as picture above). I think my immune system is really damn low now (what to do always sleepppp only..!! lolz). I hate flu and I think nobody likes them either. I think I need Ridsect to kill it off (imagine I'm spraying myself with it...damn crazy!). Oh plus the weather now which is really helping me out to recover huh. I need very very good food now. More Vita C please!

If only you read what I'm writting here....

I was so happy and glad to know you the first time. But now it seems I don't quite know you anymore. I'm actually shattered here but you don't notice it as you live in your own world now. You don't know the rivers I've made from the drops of my eyes in a cold lonely night. People are right sometimes that good things don't last forever in this life. You don't know how it feels to be torn and stripped by doings you've made. It's true that we shouldn't hope much because our hearts will only break when its fake. There's an earthquake in me from the actions you've done. I wish only you read this but you aren't. Even if you do would know the story to it? I can't ask for more. Maybe its time.

Wonderful time.....

Had the best times in the past 2 days with all the crazy people in the world. It was so much fun hanging out with them after so long since I've reduced my hanging out-ness with them. They always cheer up my days and brings back the smile to my face. From watching movies on a laptop with a theater effect like a.k.a. cinema for a whole day and going through the storm for a trip to the waterfalls although the water was like Milo ice (serious...after the travelling we did not wanted to leave the place like that ait?). I can never get enough with them.
Bell / Jali / Bunga / Ann / Zue =)
p.s. - hanging out with them is better then hanging out with someone who's so close to my heart....


Today its all about the music! (I love music....its like blood to me...hahahaha - drama king). Maybe I should post entries like this ait? (No la sure boring.) Music from Natasha Bedingfield - Strip Me (like the sound of that ya..haha)

Lyrics people (sing it right):
La-la-la-la-la la
lala la la-la la lala

Everyday I fight for all my future somethings
A thousand little wars I have to choose between
I could spend a lifetime earning things I don't need
That's like chasing rainbows and coming home empty

And if you strip me, strip it all away
If you strip me, what would you find
If you strip me, strip it all away
I'll be alright

Take what you want steal my pride
Build me up or cut me down to size
Shut me out but I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
But you ain't taking that from me (oh ooh)
You ain't taking that from me (oh oh)
You ain't taking that from me (oh oh)
You ain't taking that from me (oh oh)
You ain't taki…


Its been 2 months since I've completed my internship. Seriously, when I was working I was so hoping to end it fast! But now I'm kinda hoping I could go back there and work. Sitting at home all day doing nothing but Facebook, DVD's, eating, sleeping and all sorts is so boooorrrrriiinnngggg.  My mood now feels like going back to the office and tell my boss, "Hye is there work for me? (hahahaha)". I guess that's what happen when you hope too much. (I wonder what are they doing now??)

Here comes the cake....

Every wedding must have a wedding cake. But my sis thinks otherwise. She rather have not a cake, but my mum on the other hand disagrees with her. She insists on cake. So because of that my sis agree to have a wedding cake on her big day.  My mum's happy now! The story goes like this.  So one day me and my mum decided to go and look for a baker who specializes is wedding cakes. We found a few, they were very nice and ok. Besides, their prices were even very nice too! Can you imagine a wedding cake can cost a minimum of RM1500!! and that's for a small one!. (hye its just cake why so expensive aunty???) And so, since the cake was quite on a high side, at first my mum and agree on getting the cake although the price was like "THE PETRONAS TWIN TOWERS". Then suddenly one day my mum said, "Why don't we try making the cake ourselves? After all its not that difficult". (She was 70% right la...) That's when it began the 'WCP - wedding cake project'. We g…

Busy Busy Busy I'm So Busy.....

Seriously I've only been so busy like this like early of this year only and have not been so busy like now for such a long timeeee....

Sometimes I've always wanted to be busy but when I'm stuck in it, I just wanna get out from it man.!! Fuh!!

Ok. So you might ask what I'm 'sooooo' busy with right? (I can read your mind from my blog..hahaha).

So firstly, I'm still stuck with my FYP. I've met my lect but I've not gotten anything moving yet (I'm so gonna die shoooot??).

The secondly there's this camp that I'm joining and I'm currently stuck too with the preparations for it (although I'm just like "biar je la apa yang berlaku"..hahaha).

Thirdly I'm being the runner for my sis in preparations for her wedding by being the person who's going round sending her wedding cards out (love the running around part get to 'lepak lepak'..haha but hate it coz its clashing with my 1st and 2nd

Fourthly, I…


It will be a week tomorrow since the incident happen.What incident you might be asking? Well, its that all my precious and important belongings have been stolen from me by someone who was a 'so called' friend to a friend of mine. It's a very long story of what happen. (if you read my entry here, it was about that a friend). It's a long and complex story which I will not forget nor forgive. I'm still in shock but I'm trying to over come it. But I'm just kinda worried with all my P&C in my lappy, what will happen to them? I'm only wishing the person who stole my lappy to not do any thing with those docs but just delete them. I'm actually still cursing and swearing at the person who stole my things. It wasn't only mine, but the 3 of us (yes 3!!). Well like some people say, "You who do evil to one, will get your equal punishment as a result of your actions". Currently I'm still in a cold mode towards my friend. It's b…


Ok so this entry is not about the conventional fireworks. lolz. Its the new MV for Katy Perry's latest single "Firework". The video's kinda very sparky with lights shooting from your chest and all, but its almost very inspirational I could say. Its almost like Christina Aguilera's "Beautiful" lolz. Music wise, the lyrics is full of encouragement with words of strength (be like a firework...). It might not be a good "Teenage Dream", but wonder will it go higher on the charts? Still kinda liking this song though. Very inspiring (I think so la..haha)


I'm not sure what my feelings should be right now. Should I be angry? Should I be furious? Should I be mad? But why I am not? I totally mad but I'm controlling it. I'm utterly disapointed with you. I've place my trust on you but look at what has become of? I'm just to down by all this. I've lost all my importants because of you. I can't blame you a 100% but couldn't you have thought about your actions before you do them? You don't know how sick and tired I am with all your nonsenses. I just can't figure out what was in your head at that time? Maybe you fooled too. Maybe you were cheated too. Now you've learned the hardest lesson in life. What's lost can't be attained back. What's be done might not be forgiven. What's said can't be taken back. It's not ignorant but it's stupidity.

It was lovely not to be in KL......

Sometimes when I get the chance to be out of town, I would grab it tight and never let it go. Well that was what I did during the weekends. Took a trip down (actually is more of a up action) to Cameron Highlands (a place which used to be cold but now no more). Although it was just "Cuti-Cuti Malaysia", but at least I was out of KL. Won't crap much about it here. Will have a special post for it ait.
Before that, enjoy one of my current fav song. Terrified by Katherine McPhee (its 'fee' not 'pee'..lolz)


Happy Birthday To Yo


22/10/2010 will soon be here (actually this Friday..lolz). I've spend quite a number for something. Hope you'll love it although it maybe small. I can't wait for that day. Nothing much that I have for you but I hope for the best. It took me days of thinking but only 2 days to finish what I've planned. Can't wait for you expressions (hoping it would be a lovely one).
(2 days straight being to Bukit Bintang to find that one nice thing)


Sometimes I think I'm always wearing a mask. I'm always hiding behind a mask made of clay, paper, wood or "skin". I have to be who I am not in front of certain people. Being who I am not is not the worst part, but faking of who I am and lying about my feelings is the hardest thing I could do. Sometimes I got to fake what I do in order to bring joy to some or to please someone.
When will I be able to remove this mask I'm wearing? How long would I have to wear it? Will it be forever or for a moment? But what I know, I might not be able to remove it for where I am today, this mask that I'm wearing, might be the only thing that's making sure everything is going right and fine.
Don't like this mask, but I will wear it for as long as it takes.

Think / Act...

Current situation I'm (or maybe some of you might be going through) stuck in. Ups downs, it's a norm in life. (what to do, maybe some of it was meant to be..)

So what about it?....

It's never easy nor hard.  But if we try we could make it.  It's never fast nor slow.  But if we try we could achieve it.  It's never sad nor happy.  But if we try we could be glad with it.  It's never cold nor hot.  But if we try we could stay warm with it. It's never liking nor hating But if we try we could be in love with it.

One out the hundreds....

Its not once you've done this to me. It has been a hundred gazillion times. Why do you keep on doing this to me? Why do you keep on lying to me? What have I done wrong to you? Have I ever lied till that extend to you? You don't know how it hurts when you lie, but in the end I'll know about it without you even telling me. You think I'm stupid and I have a clue what you're doing. You think by lying to me that I wouldn't know what you're doing. I'm sick and tired of you lying to me and faking all your reasons. What will all this bring in the end? What will happen in the end? You've lied too much to me and there's nothing more I can take. I've trusted you but its like you're stabbing me in the back. What will I do? What will I say?


Some say its an auspicious day. But some say its just like every other day. What do you think? Well for me its just a nice day with the perfect day, month and year. (it sounds and looks nice Ok for me its is an even natural number following 9 and preceding 11. (right??). But its a good day to do something. (like blogging lolz). 

So I have,
10 things to do, 10 things to see, 10 things to say

The art of lying...

So people are so bloody good at it and some are so bloody bad at it. Well I can say that I'm good in lying but not bloody good in it. Is lying a gift? Or is it a skill?
Why do we lie? Well its because we need to hide something which might bring sadness, misery, hurt, smile, tears, laughter, and so much more. If don't lie it will bring up the worse of situations or the best.
Have you made a lie today? What has been your biggest lie? For me, I've made a million lies. Some I'm not so proud of but some because it has too.

To buy or not to buy...

Today and yesterday I've visited this lovely place. If I were to go there I could spend almost an hour by just looking at them. I love them.
"What a lovely pet shop!"
Skipping to the chase, should I get a rabbit? Well the last one I bought it was only with me for like 2 weeks and she (yes a she) went up to heaven due to unforeseen sickness. How could I go through it again (feeling sad...almost)? But the rabbit is so cute! Have you seen rabbits, when you approach the cage, all of them would come to you for you to pat them? No rite?!.  Seriously so cuteee! But should I get it? I really want to but should I? Herrrmmmm... Mum said later. A someone said now (of course la because that someone won't 'jaga' it). Others what they say? I also don't know.

This is the bunny I want to buy!!


Why do we eat? Well maybe we eat because we have to survive? I think so. lolz
Sometimes I get so bored of deciding what to eat. Whether its breakfast, lunch, dinner or supper. There are times I would like take the whole day to plan what to eat. Even today, (I mean like now) I'm deciding what to have for dinner (Aiyo headache man..).  So today I drove round and round this one area thinking what to eat there. Then I got fed-up, I went to 'KK' mart (there the one with green and orangy-red design like 7/11) and bought my self 2 packets of Maggie 'Kari', 1 Korean mee and 1 'Mee Goreng' (I always love it!!...).  Planning what to eat can be so troublesome. lolz. Should I go Bangsar later for supper? (What to eat??!!)

Po pet Po pet Po pet....

Living in a house with person who just can't shut the gap can be so bloody annoying. Every single thing there's always something to make noise about. Sometimes I wish you just sit quite on the floor and just look at the TV and don't ask so many questions or even make a single sound. To make things worst, every single other people you must have a share in it or must know about it. Aiyo!! Just shut your bloody big gap la!!...

Oh no!!!...

So yesterday I decided to take a trip to the faculty in my Uni. When there to get the 'penilainan' form for my internship. After taking that I casually ask the 'kakak' when do I have to submit the report? She said 11/10/2010. So everything was fine. Then I decided to call my friend. So we chatted for a bit.

Me - eh you took your form already?
Bell - yup. why?
Me- just asking. the kakak said have to pass the report on 11/10
Bell - ya i know. not that only ok! have to pass up chapter 1,2 & 3 of our fyp too!!!
Me - what the hell!!! serious ar?
Bell - ya la. you go ask her.
Me - okays!

Me - kakak when need to submit the fyp chapter 1,2 & 3?
Kkk - on the same day as your internship report
Me - if submit later can ar?
Kkk - can. someone else will collect. but ar your marks will be deducted each day you send later ar
Me - hah like that ar. but if for us who got no time to see the lecturer yet how?
Kkk - then you better faster see them oh.

(Kkk stands for KAKAK)


Serving my spare time....

Okay I've recovered from my yesterday sickness...(I've gotta tell the whole world ar? yeah I do..hahaha)
Since I'll be on holiday for such a long time and my TV doesn't seem to serve its purpose because I can't seem to get a freaking channel (the antenna in this new place don't seem to get a clear channel !! and waiting to subscribe to Astro la..sobs2..) I'll be on a drama fever. Its Korean fever!..LOLZ.. I bet every Malaysian who has a TV at home may know this super popular extreme drama about "COOKING" and "MEDS".. It's called:
"JEWEL IN THE PALACE" or in Korean "DAE JANG GEUM" (I find it weird the Korean name and English is so different)
Ok. I admit I'm a fan of this drama. (so ah ma right??lolz). But I like the story line although it can be quite dragging sometimes.  For those who don't know about this drama, look it up at Wikipedia here.  ;p
How famous can this show get? Some of the actress manage to get th…

Don't stuff yourself....

So yesterday night took my parents and sis to a famous seafood spot in Ampang. It was called "Nong & Jimmy". I think by the name of it you can guest what sort of food they had there. (Nong nong....Thai loooo...). As usual the place is normal packed with hungry and desperate food lovers (but I'm not desperate ok. Took my family for a taste of it only...hihihi) who would stand and wait just to get a table there. (we also did the same thing by the way..hahaha). The food was Dili-si-ussss. The crab was two awesome huge crab. (it gotta be huge. 1.5kg for two crabs costing RM63 bugs mannn). So were stuff to the brim. That was ok.  Then after sending sis and parents back, I headed home. Guest what? Food again!! My house mate had just returned from a 'kenduri'. So there was lots of food he 'ta pau' back. As being me, I couldn't resist.  It started with just a few tasting sessions but ended up gulping down chicken, rice and so much more. (my stomach has loss…


I've got so many decisions to make. Which one shall I choose? Which is the best? What is right? Who is the important one? Lots of What Who Which When Why and all those decision  making stuff. I'm not lovin any of it.


I wanna be Elmo in that case...LOLZ...How popular can Sesame Street ever get? They've got a real street after the show too. Remember the days when I used to wake up early in the morning just to catch Elmo, Big Bird, Cookie Monsters and all those full of personality furry stuffed figures. Still love them!!

5 months.....

My internship will be officially over tomorrow. What a 5 month its has been. Damn so fast too!. Although I'm gonna enjoy my 3 months holiday before my next class starts, I'm gonna be bored to death I think. So much I've learned and so much I've made. Great people I've met from great places.
Maxis was a real great experience for me. Lots of cool events I've been to and from. Lots of goodies too. (lolz).
So where will me next adventure be? I don't know. Gotta wait and see.

Too often...

Quarreled and fought again. Recently it has been too often. I don't know what to do anymore. It's all my fault. I think I need an attitude adjustment. I'm so sorry.

Damn 5th time I've met her....

I'm sure many of you guys and gurls have gone through the same situation as I have. Which is someone coming up to you and asking you to fill in some kind of form or what the hell its called. It can be quite annoying though people asking you all sorts of question and all. (please don't get annoyed with me ya when I do those kind of stuff..lolz). So back to the story I'm suppose to tell (crapping to much these days..haha), this girl around 22 or 23, specs, pony hair style, around 5ft, weight not even 50kg (she is thinnnn...), student I think came up to me.  Girl: Excuse me sir can I ask you some Q & A ? Me: (being a gentleman) Ok. Girl: You working? Me: Yes (with confidence although I'm just interning) Girl: You satisfy with your pay? Me: Yes (hell no I'm not!! hahahaha) Girl: You save? Me: Yes if I have extra Girl: Would RM100 per month enough for you? Me: No (how am I gonna survive in my old age if I save 100 bugs per month) Girl: I mean just lets say la. No exactly. Me: O…

Fall, Get Up and Start Again....

If you fall don't fret. If you've scratch your knee cry. Push yourself back up again. Stand up and move on. Leave the pain behind. Nothing is meant to hurt.

There's a fine line between Personal & Professional....

How many of you would agree that there is a very fine line between personal-ism and professional-ism? 
Although is a very thin fine line, but there is still a difference between those two things. There are times I wonder how people can say that they are being professional without mixing personal stuff with their work?
If you say you are being professional in your job and at work, but why do you take things written or said in a social networking site aka Facebook and bring it to work to discuss about? You say we should not bring personal matters to work. Let personal matters stay at its place. But look who's doing the other way round now? You talk about the power of social networking sites and how it can influence people and all. But did you realise that it also entitles you to what you have to say? You took what was said in that site and you bring  it to work and tell me I should not write those kind of stuff like that. Who you are to tell me what to write and not to write?  And bes…

Something to speak?

Finally I'm writing something on my blog.. (like don't..lolz). So some quick updates ya.

Pangkor FUN!!! love the sea although its not like Redang la...but still better then Penang..(its me...but its water wise ok not sight seeing wise..)

My skin is darkkkk. My face is like going through a new phase of live...lolz

Raya didn't visit anyone this time. Since I was on holiday and everyone is still away. (miss my college mates... sobs2)

Happy because tomorrow is Malaysia Day which means holiday for me..haha

Excited but sad also half hearted but want to go. My internship is about to end next. (5 months is like 5 days)

Still editing the Pangkor pics. Uploaded to FB but here not yet. (Will bla bla about the trip soon!!...heheehe)

Starting this Friday I'm gonna die with events until my last day. (iPhone 4 is coming soon I know? Because I'm working in Maxis ma...lots of secrets..heheehe)

sElAmAt HaRi RaYa

Ok it should be on the first day I've should wish this but since Raya is for a month they why not I wish it now? lolz. To all my friends, bloggers, readers and all who so ever la that celebrates Raya, I would like to wish a very Selamat Hari Raya to all of you.

Pulau (Island) Pangkor

Currently I'm in Pangkor!! (still got time to update a post le..haha)..At the moment I'm drain dead. Tired man. I think RedBull would'nt help even now. But its so sad I've gotta be back in KL tomorrow although I've been here for two days already. (actually just 1 and a half la...lolz). Won't give much detail now. (wanna make is more interesting in my next post..huhu)...Pangkor is currently ooo la la la la....

Stars are blind....

Who would have imagine. After being said to have been and partied with a Malaysian millionaire look at pic A and B.(which made a buzzz media wise)
Now she's making a her way down here. Who is it? Well she's none other then Paris Hilton (sure will stay at Hilton KL...lolz).But she will only be here for 24 hours and its this month too. The pop star will here to launch her new fragrance called Tease and row of handbags only at Pavillion KL. the great thing, she will arriving on the 23rd, 24th for all those and will leave for Jakarta the same day but at night. (Crazyyy ??) But for those PaLis HiRton fans, don't be down. You might just be able to meet and greet her since there will be a MEET THE FANS session at Pavillion too. (Nicky will be there too...ooooo)
Paris, hope you're not like what you are in Simple Life....LOLZzzz

Please Don't Stop The Musicccc.....

Rihanna is going for a new image, style and music. Rated R is in the past. She's back with new hits and tunes.
She release her latest single titled "Only Girl (In The World)" which is produced by the Grammy-winning Stargate who also made some of her previous hit singles too. Plus her latest album is also rumored to be out in November titled "Loud!". So here's the latest single from pop and R&B sensation Rihanna. It could be her next #1 hit in the US and maybe worldwide. Enjoy the music Rihanna-ners. So what do you think about it?